10.25

ok so i didn't post anything for 4 days.

not much went on besides:
school.
work.
blah blah.

schools been lame.
STILL

work Sat was alright.
Carlos & me got $20 tip each :D
hell yeahhh!
+$30 we get for workin.
=$50 well deserved.
After that went to our old neighbors party.
she turned 40.
it was AIGHT.
too boring tho :/

Sunday. T.day.
BORING A|F
shopped that was alright.
cleaned.
spaced.
LAGGED ON MY SPEECH.
barely gna start & its 10:35
FML.

I present tomorrow in my 9:20 class. ugh.

LOVE LIFE:
chismosos LOL
but its going good.
i think i found the person i wanna really be with.
no second doubting.
& i KNOW he wants to be with me
:)
ugh these other boys aint got nothin on him
STRICTLY FRIENDS.
thats all im lookin for
:)

im happy, super happy. NO LIE :)

& winter break imma be even happier :D
ILRB<3

blah blah

what a fucking gay day :)

but well its over soon!

chilled at home most of the time.

aim'd watched music vids all tht bad stuff.

school:
speech, alllright :)
psychology: midterm FAWK

i have a midterm in gym tomorrow.
FML

i totally forgot till i typed that WOW LOL

i got pretty pissed that a friend deleted my comment.

i hate when people do that.

idk for whatever reason anyone ever delets or doeant approve a cmnt i leave,
its not cos its bad.
i never leave bad comments.
or somethin tht'll get someone in trouble.

but fuck it.
dont wanna be a low key thaang.

hmm speaking of low key.

fawk i hate having this lowkey -_-

blah.

today was lame.
rodney: indifferent -_-
idk :(

blah blah.

i think im crushin tho.
HARD.
fml.
its impossible
:(

i wanna,,, not be sober for a day.
:)
haha soon i hope :)
ignore that lol


UGLY BOY I HATE YOU.!


:)



my butter finger.

we got em slippin fingers

& we dnt give a fuck!!





YUP

i love her :)

anyways that ends todays blog.

i know.

it was lame.

same shit as yesterday?

mmmm...

♡kay

today!

was a waaay better day :)
dyed my hair, its ALRIGHT lol
looks waay lighter in the sun.
i tried to take a pic to put it on here but it looked dark. OH WELL

so today = no classes.

went to the gym & got a goood workout.
**arms & legs will be sore in the AM lol

came home, studied.!

NAPPED :D

woke up watched some novela.. WILLIAM LEVY *sigh*
BOMB!

*ring ring*
got a call from melissa
went to wendy's where i saw ERIC!
& he gave me free food XD
then went to the mall, & bought some shirts.
& tlkd bout sex, guys, bitches & ish lol

talked to my babyboy today :)
so that always puts me in a GOOD MOOD :P
i think things are gonna work out between us.
but for now were still see'n. YUP.
plans are never a good thang,
cos they don't work out like you want em to.
so i don't wanna plan anymore & let things be.
2 years and people still fucking hate on us.
WHY?
idk nobody knows how we really are.
how our relationship worked/works.
his friends dont like me,, but they dont know me.
and i dont really need em to like me anyways.
HE knows how i really am.
i did slip up.
but thats not who i really am.
guess you could say it was just a phase?
a phase im over with. YUP.
<333

anyways,,
daniel really got me thinkin tho.
i know he doesnt want me to get hurt & wants me to make the right decision.
but how am i supposed to do that when i dont know if its gna work or fail?
i wish i would know.
and daniel thanks for everything<3
i know you'll be around for a looong time.
& YES we gotta have this talk you speak of lol
i really appreciate everything you gimme advice on.
even if you sugar coat things for me.
but i know everything will be fine in the end. right?

so right now im seeing where things are headed.

i never thought my love life would be a big ass issue for me.
but it is.
and i realized that now because well....
if im not happy im not myself :(
AND thats what took me into that "phase" ^

babiesbabiesbabies.

i want one now. LOL

but i also want a job, and an ipod.
and a million other things i cant have.

:D

thats it for tonight.

boring blog.

SORRY <3

FUCKfuckFUCK.

why am i so confused?
why cant things be concrete?

FML! D:

DONE

♡kay

okay so!

i just dyed my hair & im waiting for to wash it out.

so daniel says

"ugh what if it looks funny haha"

FML LOL

daniel would say that :(

blaaahhh.

so i have 8 min left :) aha...

and i have gym @ 2.

I DONT WANNA GOOOOOO!

blogging once again.

okay so it has been forever since i have blogged.

but i've been having too much on my mind, and this seemed like the right thing to do.
my own little personal diary i can share with whoever reads it...
i guess...if anyone even wants to read lol
:)

it has become really hard to trust people,
and in some people i lost trust.
reason being, i told them a deep shameful secret,,
& they basically let MY whole little world know.
and eventually got to my mom.

during all this time, i became closer to some friends than others.
one girl i am THANKFUL for is Jasmyn Diaz.
Shes been there for me, as well as i have for her.
NO BULLSHITTING HERE.

I grew apart from my bestest friend in the whole wide world for a while,
but shes always with her stuff.
so im not even gonna blame her.
i love her. thats all there is too it.

the one thats always been there Maria.
aw man i love her to death!
forever & ever<3

Rodney came back in to my life.
& now idk where were headed.
Its like a roller coaster that wont stop.
he was always there, only behind a window.
watching me, watching everything i did.
UNTIL Caesar came along.
he knew he was taking good care of me.
But now i wish this roller coaster would stop.
So we could stay or be done.
im not saying things will work out in the futue,
but i want answers RIGHT NOW.

On another note:
this guy came into my life.
A FUCKING LIFE SAVER
for sure.
been there every daaay, since day one.
Loves to make me smile, so he cheers me up when im down.
tells me everything will be OKAY.
but sad thing is he's the last person that should be here.
NO DETAILS BOY.
but im starting to love having him here.
:)
you know who you are.

Life has been pretty fucking crazy.
School is a killer.
UGH

Mayra my bestfriend<3
& Danny will be having a baby and im SO excited :D
something im REALLY looking forward to.

Well for tonight, thats it.
BeBackTomorrow

:)

Love♡; BabyKay